Hey, will

[Caligula]

I'm new here and while I'm very happy that I joined, I wanted to tell u that there was one immediately noticeable flaw. Going into the forum with a ton of different topics was ok cause each one is a person saying what they need to say n u can replay n help. No complaints there. But you're missing a simple general chatroom where people can just come in n say hi or yell if they have to. Most people sign in and then leave soon thereafter cause there's no interaction. Like a big giant house with a ton of bedrooms but no livingroom 4 everyone to gather in n socialize. Other than that, I'm really glad you're here. Thanx 4 doing this 4 all of us

[sunshineluvsrain]

I somehow, I dont remember, stumbled on this site. I loved it, I joined, and I read a lil' of your background info on how the site was started or the whole concept of it. But, what I dont understand is where are you or the other admins for that matter. Did you create this site and it served it's purpose so now you've moved on to a different project. I find myself coming here alot, but i'm reading and responding to alot of old posts. Should I continue to post? And also, alot of the old posts were never responded to. Its like the users are posting, and some were going through some very hard times, and based on their posts may or maynot be with us anymore, but no one every responded. In the posts that you did respond to, you seem like a really cool guy. Also, Claire, I have to agree with the other users seems to be a real sweetheart. But where the hell are you guys???? I mean yes, it is a relief to find such an outlet. But it feels like I'm writing my thoughts down on a scrap of paper and throwing em out in the wind.

respectfully,

[Caligula]

I'm new here but I'm gonna hafta agree. My brother let my niece have a puppy once as long as she promised to feed him n give him water n clean up after him n such. As kids tend to do sometimes, she started to negect her responsabilities once the magic of having a new puppy started wearing off. Her parents work alot so they weren't really there to pick up the slack n help her out. They did the responsable thing n gave the dog to a family with older kids with a bigger backyard. My point is that, will, if you're reading this, if u don't have the same drive to run this site maybe you should give it to some one that is gonna take the baton n run with it. With suicide not exactly being a casual subject, us crazies r gonna b kinda passionate about our little hiding place. We don't really have alot of other choices. So I agree with sunshineluvsrain. Help us out, will

[clearlyclaire]

Hi Sunshine-and Everyone!!!
I haven't been around. You're right. I started to feel better, I started to get a damn life, I thought I got the right medication mix (if you could call it that) I got busy.....I was doing all the "RIGHT" things to beat this F &$^^%$ ing depression. I got voted in as President of our Co-op and was so eager to jump in and fix everything. I was getting out more, I was staying in close contact with my friends. I don't know if anyone can relate, but I actually caught myself SINGING sometimes. That's a bloody miracle.
Then for no reason, no trigger, I began to slip again. Nothing happened, nothing went wrong or bad---except my own head.
Things slipped, then slipped some more. My psych doc is changing my meds once again and all I can think is, "Here we go again!"
I've been catching up on posts this morning, but I stopped here. I stopped because I read my name and realized that I feel like I deserted my friends, my support.
I have been on and off anti-depressants and medications since I was 15 years old, seeing child therapists since I was, like 5 or 6. I am now 44. (Yeah, I'm the Granny here!) So I suppose that the Goddamn joke is on me.
I guess all I can really hope for are little reprieves from this crazy head of mine, then it's back into the pit of despair. Maybe my lesson here is to fully and completely love and appreciate these reprieves while they last and resign myself to wading through the crap. I find myself asking if it's worth the fight. Again.
I am tired. I want to read through he rest of the new posts, but I either have to get my ass to work, or just go back to bed and work tonight.
Hello to all the new members. It's so good to read your posts and get out of my own damn head...keeps things in perspective for me. As I've said to many people here, "You are not alone" I am sincerely glad that I can say this to myself and hope I can jump back in and get to know some of the new people and talk to some good friends.
Eric, Will...Thanks.
Claire

[sunshineluvsrain]

Well I for one am glad you're back Claire, because I sure as hell think i'll be here for a while. But I do hope that you're doing well. But dont get me wrong... I glad your back for the support, and to support others. I hope you're feeling better!

[sunshineluvsrain]

Well I for one am glad you're back Claire, because I sure as hell think i'll be here for a while. But I do hope that you're doing well. But dont get me wrong... I glad your back for the support, and to support others. I hope you're feeling better!