Dear XXXX (insert name)

[freakaga1n]

This website's full of young people that have been through and are still struggling through a sh!tty life. I'm not sure if this thread was already created but anyway. People that feel like their emotions have been caged for too long, write them out in the form of letters to whoever. Just let it all out... why should we be silenced?...
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I know some of you might read this and think it's lame but trust me, it takes the weight off your shoulders for a little while...
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I'll go first.



Dear Asha,

I know about it. I know that you talk about me behind my back. In fact, I remember the exact words that Smile told me the day when she confessed that you were b!tching about me.

"I think that Freakaga1n just hangs around with us and copies what we do and tries to be cool. She must be laughing her head off back at home when she decieves us with her fake personality!"

I was hurt. I was shocked, no, traumatised! How could you! You were my BEST friend, no... SISTER for the past 6 years! I believed in you, trusted you, told you everything that was on my mind, and loved you as a family member. I couldn't look at you the same way again and I still can't because I know that you're the type of girl that likes juicy gossip. You're the type of girl that tells people their secrets then says, "But you can't tell anyone, okay?"...
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No. You're not a slut. I have no idea why but I still love you as my best friend, okay? I know people aren't perfect. Fish can't live in water that's too clean after all!... but... did you have to go that far?... so far that you went around telling all your other friends all my secrets?...
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I must admit, there is a hidden side to me which you don't know. So you can't just go prancing about, saying things without knowing someone to the core! Because you don't even know half of me! There are so many things you don't know!...
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I'll tell you ten.

1. I tried to commit suicide TWICE

2. I cut myself

3. I don't listen to screamo music because it "makes me look kewl"... I listen to it coz, unlike you, I can relate to it and I know that I'm not the only one going through sh!t

4. I only cry when I'm angry

5. I cry myself to sleep

6. I can actually be REALLY nice

7. I hate my life and myself

8. I sometimes hate my parents for pressuring me to be perfect

9. I've taken overdozes of painkillers before and still do...

10. My Grade 6 teacher harrassed me and changed me when he asked me If my cousins sexually abused me... (don't ask, long story)


If that list wasn't 10, this'd go on forever. What I'm just saying is, since I'm the perfect, funny, nice, open, warm, smart girl that everyone knows, nobody knows the actual me! So whatever b!tching they do of me is basically good enough as talking to a wall...
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I personally think you say these things about people to lick your own wounds.

Sorry. but it can't be helped.


Your best friend and sister,

Freakaga1n

xoxo
oxox

PS: I also know that you think I'm not "attractive enough to be actually considered as a "normal girl"?"... well guess what? When did you guess that I'm not the prettiest person alive? DING! DING! DING!

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I wish that's the only problem in my life...
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[Will]

This website's full of young people that have been through and are still struggling through a sh!tty life. I'm not sure if this thread was already created but anyway. People that feel like their emotions have been caged for too long, write them out in the form of letters to whoever. Just let it all out... why should we be silenced?...
...

I know some of you might read this and think it's lame but trust me, it takes the weight off your shoulders for a little while...
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That's not lame at all, it's why I started this site.  Welcome to our community and hope you add your thoughts.

will

[freakaga1n]

That's not lame at all, it's why I started this site.  Welcome to our community and hope you add your thoughts.

will

phew... that's good...  :)... it's just that I've tried to share my opinions, thoughts, ideas and emotions with people but they all just brush it aside so I'm not very used to it... thank you...
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[freakaga1n]

Dear my Grade 6 maths/homeroom teacher,

Hello, I know this is really random but I've decided that I want to share a few thoughts with you... I've held these emotions and thoughts in my heart for too long and they've changed me and my life. They changed EVERYTHING... all because you betrayed me... and lied to me... and harrassed me...

Yea, I told my friends that I was going to commit suicide and told them not to be sad about it because I was going to be happy and free (I lied to you when I said it was meant to be a joke)... yea, it would be disturbing coming from an 11 to 12 year old... I understand that... but you have no idea what you made me think of my friends! Everything about them was so DIFFERENT after that!

Why should you care if I commit suicide? Because you're my teacher and you and everyone else "cares for and loves" me? You have no idea who I really am! The Anthony you knew and still know today never existed! If I showed the real me, would you still care? Would you? You have no idea! If you really DID care for me, you would've let me go! (DING! DING! DING! And you've clipped the bird's wings again!~)

You said, "Nobody will know about this but I want you to have a round with the councellor..." Oh gawd, BIG MISTAKE! Yea, I burst out crying at the councellor's office! But you have no idea why! Ever since that "chat" with you, I can't have a 1-on-1 convo with ANY adult without breaking out into a panic attack and crying! It's all because of you!

That councellor told me that everything that was said in the room between him and I would be a secret but, no! You had him tell you! Then you and the councellor both went to the principal's office and decided to "spill the beans!" Smooth move! I felt so betrayed when my mum told me that the principal called her and asked to have a meeting with her! I trusted you! And you betrayed that trust! Now, I can't trust ANYONE! I can't even be looked in the face by anyone! I can't walk through school alone without breaking down!

Okay, now that I've gone over the part that you and I both know (with bits that you don't know), I can get onto the results of these events... or so-called "consequences"...

1. My mum and dad yelled at me everyday and immediately got paranoid or angry if I didn't look happy!

2. I started taking painkillers!

3. I developed a case of paranoia!

4. I developed a case of onsomnia!

5. I also developed a mild case of schizophrenia!

6. You chaned me, everything about me, everything around me, everyone near me, my thoughts, points of view and so on...

7. I tried committing suicide... again...

Now, I'm scared of showing my true colours and I've lost my will to live! Thank you very much for this... gifted life I recieved from you... I'll always remember you... as one of the people on my "never-forgiving" list.

I smiled. I smiled because when I smiled, you said that I seemed "happy" and stopped making damn reports on my behaviour every two seconds! You're so blind! Yea, you seem to like being blind too! *Smiles*  :)  ;D

From,
freakaga1n

PS: FUCK YOU! BURN! IN! HELL!...
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PPS: Asking me those questions like, "Do your relatives sexually abuse you?" is said to be and invasion of privacy and harrassment and is AGAINST THE LAW!

[Chemical_Valentine]

Dear People of Tooele, (more like one certain person there)
Why do you do this to me? I know that you think I'm just a city girl that doesn't care what you do but you are so fuckin wrong. I TRY TO EXPLAIN MY FEELINGS TO YOU AND YOU ALWAYS SAY THAT SOMETHING YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH IS WORSE!!!! WELL I DON'T FUCKIN CARE ABOUT YOU!!!! I TRY TO LOVE SOMEONE AND ALL YOU DO IS LAUGH. YOU THINK YOU KNOW THE REAL ME, IVE BEEN FAKING IT FOREVER. I AM NOT THAT NICE SMART GIRL YOU ALL THINK IS ME. I AM ALONE IN THIS WORLD AND ALL YOU CAN EVER TALK ABOUT IS YOUR LIVES. YOU NEVER ASK ME IF I'M OKAY. YOU NEVER WANT TO KNOW IF IM HAVING A GOOD DAY. HERE ARE SOME OF MANY MANY MANY THINGS THAT YOU DO NOT KNOW ABOUT ME!!!!
1. Yes, I listen to rock and screamo, BUT JUST BECAUSE I DONT LIKE PREPPY STUPID SONGS LIKE YOU DO, DOESNT MEAN THAT IM WEIRD
2. IM SUICIDAL UNDERNEATH THAT FAKE SMILE IM FORCED TO GIVE YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!!
3. i DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU OR YOUR DAYS, I DONT WANNA HEAR ABOUT THEM
4. I DONT CARE IF YOU MISS THE PEOPLE WHO USED TO LIVE IN MY HOUSE...GET OVER IT
5. WHEN I SAY IM OKAY... guess what??? IM NOT!!!
6. ITS PEOPLE LIKE YOU THAT MAKE PEOPLE LIKE ME FEEL THIS WAY
7. I've always wanted to tell you....LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! I HATE YOU
8. i know you dont like swearing.. SO WHY DO YOU THINK I SWEAR AROUND YOU SO MUCH???
9. YOU ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE HALF OF MY PROBLEM
10. I HAD A FUCKIN BOYFRIEND UNTIL I HAD TO MOVE SO DONT ASK ME IF I LIKE ANY BOYS HERE!!!
11. I DRESS LIKE AN EMO FOR A REASON... IF YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!!!!!!!!
12. YOU TORTURE ME WITH YOUR HAPPY LIFE AND YOUR HAPPY FRIENDS
13. I DONT WANNA HEAR IF YOUR DAD DOESNT COME HOME FOR A WEEK
14.I DONT WANNA DO TO THE FUCKING MOVIES WITH SOMEONE I HATE
15. I HATE YOU BUT I CANT SAY IT BECAUSE MY MOM WILL KILL ME
16. THERE IS NO ONE I CAN TALK TO ESPECIALLY PEOPLE LIKE YOU
17. I HOLD EVERYTHING IN UNTIL I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND I CUT AND CUT AND CUT
18. YOU MAKE ME SICK
19. I DONT CARE IF YOUR DOG IS FUCKIN SMALLER
20. I DONT TALK TO YOU AT SCHOOL FOR A REASON
21. YOU RUINED MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


To you, Hannah, I hope these words bring some pain into your life, because I sure as hell got enough from you to last a lifetime!!!!!
SIGNED,
YOUR TRUE HATER WHO DOES FUCKIN CARE,
Sara

[shark]

DEAR YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY A VERY SPECIAL FUCK YOU TO YOU.
YOU DONT HAVE ANY IDEA AND I DOUBT YOU EVER FUCKING WILL
1. YES. I CUT MYSELF. FUCK YOU, YOU ARE LIKE, THE ONLY PERSON THAT KNOWS AND YOU DONT EVEN CARE
2. IVE TRIED TO KILL MYSELF BEFORE - I ALSO TOLD YOU ABOUT THAT, AND YOU DONT SEEM TO CARE ABOUT THAT EITHER
3. YOU JUST JUDGE ME ON THE THINGS I LIKE. SUCH AS THE WAY I DRESS AND THE MUSIC I LIKE. YOU ARE SO GODDAMN SHALLOW AND STUPID. YOU ARE ALWAYS LIKE OHH THOSE PEOPLE OVER THERE ARE REALLY SCARING ME IM GETTING OOUT OF THIS SHOP. LOOK AT THEIR CLOTHES IM SCARED.....I FUCKING WEAR CLOTHES LIKE THAT YOU DOUCHE...
4. YOU NEVER ASK ME IF IM OKAY
5. YOU NEVER LET ME PUT A WORD IN
6. I SPEAK AND YOU DO NOT LISTEN. ITS ALMOST AS IF YOU DONT EVEN REALISE I HAVE SPOKEN
7. THIS SMILE IS NOT REAL. FUCKING FAKEST SHIT EVER
8. YOU CONSTANTLY EXPECT ME TO BE HAPPY AND THE JOKER OF THE GROUP. WELL I CANT KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS
9. YOU CRITICIZE ME
10. YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT
11. I HAVE INSOMNIA. I SLEEP FOR ABOUT 2 HOURS EACH NIGHT
12. YOU CONSTANTLY CRACK JOKES ABOUT ME BEING A LESBIAN. WELL GUESS WHAT FUCKWIT? IM FUCKING BI. WAY TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO TELL YOU
12. I FEEL LIKE I AM ACTUALLY GOING INSANE. AND YOU DONT EVEN NOTICE THAT I HAVE BEGUN TO CHANGE
13. THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE ELSE. SOMEONE ELSE THAT TELLS EVERYONE ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS AND IT JUST MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM 'YOU FUCKING IDIOT. YOU DONT KNOW A THING ABOUT PAIN'
LOTS OF LOVE FROM ME
XOXOX

[insomniac666]

Dear Mother. Roommates. Friends. Exes. And The Motherfucking Man!

Hello Government. If I Could overthrow you, you know what i would do? Load My Desert Eagle and put it to everyone of you stupid fucks's temples and pull the trigger with a twisted sick grin on my face. Fuck you George Bush for putting us in another Economic crisis, and because of you more than half of the American's are unemployed, including me, and are losing hope fast in getting employed. Because of you, my insurance won't pay for my ear surgeries, i can't get a job, and my families going to lose their house. Obama cannot save us, he's going to barely be able to dig us out.
Speaking of you Obama, fuck you for trying to take my nicotine away, how dare you? a smoker and because you want to quit you make it nearly impossible for everyone else, too? Are you fucking serious?, im going to have to get a prescription for a pack of god damn cigarettes? hell n.o.

Levi. we broke up five months ago. LEAVE ME ALONE! i don't love you! i never did the 6 months we dated! sorry I'm a motherfucking Valkyrie, a Succubus, a conniving cunt, whatever. i used you. i needed physical relief, thanks, you fell for it. you fell in love with the wrong person. i give love a bad name. i don't give a fuck. i've been wronged, so have you. welcome to the club, it's fucking free. yeah, you got a problem with the fact that i fucked my roommates brother? and that he lasted way longer that two minutes? get over it, he's better, i told you. i told you Levi when you got with me i was bad bad news, and you said it turned you on. yeah doesn't so much now does it? dug your own grave, get in it. i don't give a fuck. i didn't want to tell you all those secrets but you stalked me, tried to force yourself on me, i had no choice. your sadness has no guilt over me. i was serious when i said i was a live-action zombie. dead, but it's all in my head. i'm depressed and suicidal and i don't have the time or energy to waste such precious emotion on someone as scummy as you, you stupid, idiotic stalking, lying douche bag.

Courtney. your my best friend. FUCK YOU. i should know that im only a waste of your time. you use me for my fucking weed you stupid cunt. you've never helped me through my hard emotional times. not at all for the three years we've been friends. i hated the six months i lived with you, i wanted to slit your throat and smear your fucking life all over the fucking walls and let everyone know i did it. killed the bitching bitch. bitch bitch bitch 24/7. oh my god someone ate a box of your mac and cheese!?!?! that you bought for everyone! oh god, go on a rampage, scream and scream because guess what court? NO ONE CARES OR CHOOSES TO LISTEN TO YOUR FUCKING ANNOYING MOUTH!!! i want to punch you in the face to the point that your asshole boyfriend can't recognize you. your a cunt! a cunt a cunt! you see these smiles on my face? their fake!.. those 'cat scratches you saw on me while i was sleeping, yeah open your eyes thunder cunt. duh. come crying to me again about how much precious Ronnie the love of your life is being a huge dick head again. i don't care anymore, because you know what i realized before you moved out? it was you who started the majority of the fights, why do you think that ron threatens to hit you? you know what court, you step on the wrong fucking toes hunny. i hope someone punches you before i get to you. i want to beat the living day lights out of you. when you have a problem, yeah talk about it, don't sob everyday about every single one of your problems, we know you have them, so does everyone else in the house, you act if your the only one going through a hard time. well you know what courtney, don't cry about your 2000 dollar credit card bill and then go out to Taco Bell and buy 25 dollars worth of food for you and Ron, don't go buy food at walmart at 3 in the morning after we've gone shopping and there's plenty of food here. we've offered to help you pay for that fucking card, but you blew off our money too. you owe me 65 bucks bitch! and did i ever ask what happened to it? no, but i know, because guess what sugar? the banks after you and your negative account. GET IN YOUR GRAVE TOO. I'm done with your repetitious bullshit. i've helped you too much and you've chosen to throw it away. you ignore me every time you get a new man, you have to be the center of attention for everything. here's a secret lovely. the majority of your friends congratulate me for dealing with your shit because guess what? THEY DON"T LIKE YOU! you drive, half of us don't. get the picture? i'm so glad you and Ron moved out.

Jerry and Erin, the Roommates. stop walking over me. just because i watch your fucking mutt kids for rent doesn't mean i'll do it every. fucking. day. capishe? damn it urks me you two. Erin your so fucking blind, Jerry's cheating on you, you find proof and you let him sweet talk you back? ha! you were paying his cell phone, car insurance, gas. cooking for him at the drop of a hat. come on babe, spread those fucking legs, he's horny and you give it whenever wanted. fuck yeah, you two are the epitomy of Bon Jovi's you give love a bad name. you guys are a fucking tornado and your trying to collide with me, the fucking Hurricane. guess what? i'll rip the both of you a new asshole. i hate every single one of your bratty ass kids. they don't listen for shit. It's a good thing homicide is illegal because i'd have heap fulls of bodies in their sandbox, ha! want to talk about how my insomnia and my schizo make me unstable? Jerry, your my best guy friend, your schizo also, uh.. shut your fucking fuck bag wife up before i do it for you. oh and Jerry you lost two of my most prized possessions, my signed Aiden posters! how could you? i left them in my box of important stuff in that box in your room, so the people at the party wouldn't steal it. did you really lose it or are you hiding them for yourself? or did you sell them for fucking coke? your pathetic. stop sitting on your ass and have the nerve to tell me to go get a job. you don't have one, stop complaining that i babysit for rent! YOU DON"T PAY THE BILLS! oh and Jerry, i've known you for a long time, i look at you as one of my best friends, a person who has almost killed for me, i love you. but stop trying to get me to fuck you while your wife's at work. i told you no, i don't care if your dick's 11 inches long, stop smacking me in the face with it, stop flaunting your naked ass around the house. i don't like guys with their heads so far up their asses they no longer see the light of day! god, you guys i want to kill every single of you, you stupid fucks, i want blood! and not just mine! stop getting in my business, just stop talking about it behind my back. before, i can't control the rageful monster that's growing inside me. i. will. destroy. you.

Last and Most Certainly not Least. Mommie Dearest. your daughter does drugs!?!? CALL THE COPS AH SHIT! it's a slap in the fucking face isnt it bitch? i kept it a secret for four years. i was coming home completely gone every. day. and you didn't know! you know your little mirror you keep in your purse, mom? i use to cut lines on that fucker.. yeah, as your in the living room watching t.v. I'm upstairs smoking reefer from a gravity bong. and you never knew! you kicked me out of the house because i spent Spring Break at a friends? i spent my 18 birthday with my best friend and you had already known about it, yet when the time came you screamed and cried and i had thought the fucking apocalypse started you freaked out so bad. you think i'm faking about my insomnia, and you have hard.core.proof. that i am.in. fact. and Insomniac. yet you tell your fucking mother and sister i complain about it 24/7 just for the attention. are you fucking serious? when did i ever mention it? once! only because i went a fucking week without one wink! i was seeing Shadow man again and you never believe me, never believe i saw the shadows. never believed the anxiety attacks until i had one in your car in front of you. want to beat me again for getting arrested my sophomore year for drug trafficking? or shall you and dad take turns like usual? well guess what, i was so fucked up that day i 'woke' up the next day in YDC not knowing i had been arrested and the cops took my fucking 200 dollar stash. did you know i was addict until then? no. i think you were in denial about it the past few years, how could you not know? but yet, you didn't even after the trouble with the pigs. you never. asked. yeah, i was ashamed to straight out tell you about it, maybe if you had at least asked instead of beating me with my purse then maybe some of my experiences wouldn't have happened. that's ok, momala, i don't blame any one but myself. oh. divorce dad, it's been 20 years, you two are done. you hate him, he hates you. get it over with, i think my brother would agree. oh and another few fun facts for you, love. i've been slicing the fuck out of myself since i was 12. 12! wow, you wouldn't say? i tried to off myself three times. pills, cutting, hanging. but don't worry mom, i'll succeed some day.

Forever Fucking Yours.
.Cassie.


*sorry if this might be a tad bit graphic. i let you guys into my mind a little.. have fun trying to get out.

[westwardcircle]

Dear Mom,
I just want you to know, that I love you, despite how shitty you make me feel sometimes.
You may just be stuck in the past, but that's probably not it. Why do you support gay rights, yet discourage me by telling me you want me to be straight and have kids? Why are you grossed out by my bisexual friends? Why do you not believe bisexual people exist if I am one?
Does that mean you don't want me to exist?
No.
I'm just blowing things out of proportion. Like we all do in this damn family. So what if they went out? So what if they were both girls? Sometimes, you just have to turn on your blinders and walk away. But I've pulled you too deep into this shit. I don't thinkI can ever tell you. At least, not yet.
And what do you have against lesbians anyways? Just because they're lesbians, it doesn't mean that they lacked a female role model or feel it's better to go out with a friend then go out and find a man. They just like girls.
I see you don't have that problem with gay guys, though.
Oh, and I guess I'm selfish, too.
I don't want to live and you sit there and say that suicides are selfis deaths and they care nothing about who they leave behind. Well, I care too much.
Heh. Maybe I am selfish.
Love,
-westwardcircle-

[insomniac666]

Dear Court.
i wrote a letter too you a while ago. I want to apologize. Yes half of the things i said in the letter, i don't mean in any fucking way. you know me. i say a lot of stupid shit to make people angry, i will say the meanest fucking things with a god damn grin on my face. in complete honesty, i was in a frenzy when i wrote the letter. Your going through a really rough time, and i know how you feel. Your my best friend, i've stayed here because your one of the biggest reasons to stay.

i won't be the selfish one.. but will you?

i hope you change your life, get away from the guy who hates to love you and deny it. you know, im always here to pick you up when you always fall ass over tin cup.

Love You Babeh
.Cassie.

[Plumbing]

Dear Georgia,

Wow, Yes I do weed ALOT of it get the fuck over it! I know you fuck other guys even though you love me so much; I've never ever cheated on you EVER, but I get drunk I get depressed and I text you and all the support I get is an arugement about a girl I don't even know I don't understand you I don't understand our relationship at all.. Your pregnant, You've been pregnant for months and you say the same fucking thing EVERY FUCKING DAY "I can't have a kid at my age" and then do NOTHING THE FUCK ABOUT IT; Great, I'm going to be locked with you for the rest of my life because of a child who I promise I will love and cherish. Also what the fuck, I support you whenever you are sad lonely or hurt or JUST AT ANTY FUCKING TIME I am there for you.. I tell you I fucked a 44 year old when I was 15 and you freak out, Yes she did basically rape me thanks for making me feel disgusting and horrible and yes I hate myself for it just fucking hate myself =[ I fucking tried to kill myself by overdosing does that show HOW MUCH I FELT LIKE SHIT because of that! FUCK, I hate you I hate you I hate you.. I am only with you because you are pregnant and I am just a nice guy who won't force you to do anything, Yep I'm a fucking pushover.. I hate your best friend Greer, You'd rather spend time with me than her.. And you two are just the coolest EVER.

SO fuck you Georgia FUCK YOU if you ever read this FUCK YOU I don't care if you walk up to me and dump me right there on the spot.

I was really hurt tonight when I told you my biggest secret ever about being raped by the 44 year old and you gave me absoloutly no fucking support at all you just made me feel like shit! I hope one day you feel as depressed as me and come here to post and read this and fucking just dump me.

Love Your one and only fucking love of your life.
Luke,

Add me on msn gansta1340@hotmail.com I am open to chatting people

[IDK577]

Dear Mom,

Hmm im not really sure where to start, if you read this youll know its me im sure. Well ill start with saying i cant believe you would put your nonworking abusive husband before your kids. I would also like to say that i dont really appreciate you making me seem like a liar to the many ive told of the situation, im not sure if youve notice, well yes i am actually, but i just dont care anymore and i know its rather fucked up to blame everything on you but its only true that every reason i debate sucide every night is because of the stupid fucked up dumb ass decitions youve made. i truly hope what happens to me changes the way you do things and who you put first, then again if you cared why would i even be typing this?

your beloved son

[ericb45696]

this was a really good idea. we need more of this IMO.

[Sorrow]

Dear Jess,

I love you with all of my heart, I don't think you understand how much you have affected me. I don't think I can comprehend how life could of been without you. I also don't think I can comprehend how much you have hurt me.

I've been hearing many rumours, about you hooking up with Blaine when we've been dating. I've heard about you trying to hit on guys and flirt with them. Hell I've even heard from some of my best fucking friends that they think you're weird for trying to hit on them. I wish that things could of been better for us, I also wish I could of moved on as easily as you did but I guess I just loved you to much.

I thought you were the one, but you broke my heart. I believed your lies, for to long.

Soon I believe I'm going to leave this world. I honestly don't want you to attend my funeral, as if I actually mattered to you. If I really did matter to you, you wouldn't have done the things you have to me. You wouldn't of treated me the way you did. You wouldn't have lied to me as much as you did.

Soon, you will forget me. I'll become apart of your past. Just another guy you point at on the street and say "I can't believe I dated him", but I wont forget you. I'll never forget you, 'till the day I die.


I love you Jessica Lee Kip, with all of my broken heart :"

[dying_heart]

dear mom and dad,

growing up with u was the worst life i could ever dream of. im not stupid! i know ur not going to the bathroom wen ur in there for 15 minutes. Dad i knew it was u in my bed at night. don't act like it never happened because it did! and u took the one thing i could have been proud of too keep! i guess i'll never know now! u both had to be high on meth to have a child. mom coming home again high asking about a dog we never had! god are u stuid? well ofcourse u are what am i saying!
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look dad 5 am in the morning is not the time to get ur daughter on the ground and stand over her naked and tell her stupid questions like "are u in the dark?" moving out of our house into a motel for the second time in my life. wow dad u really know how to raise a child! sitting in the basement getting high and watching porn is the way every 3 year old wants to remember their dad. don't write me letters talking about the new life we are ganna have together because i dont want u there!
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looking at myself i hate what i see. looking at how low i have fallen and how much more i have left to fall down on...its all because i got the dumbest parents. the ones that do drugs like a kid eats candy. the ones that also sell drugs out of their child's room! the ones that rape their daughter! the one that cant get her daughter to school, make her dinner, or buy her close because you're so strung out!
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life is going to kill me so wh not do the job myself....thanx mom and dad

[Chucky_Valle]

Dear Noah.
We played husband and wife for 4 amazing months. You lost your virginity to me. I opened up a whole new world for you.
The first time you kissed me, you were shaking, I thought it was cute.
I stuck up for you when your best friend Garrett got caught smoking weed at school.
You told your parents that I was fucking minipulative. NO. I am not. I cut myself because you overdosed on your moms painkillers.
You called me telling me that you hated yourself and that I am the only person in this world that you have ever cared about.
Well, fuck YOU!
At the end of our four months. We were friends. It was all good. Then to your request we were friends with benefits, it was all fine and dandy. Then just because I started flirting with other guys, I got myself a girlfriend, and I was doing good in school. You decided to send me a message. "Youre the most annoying person I have ever met." HA! If I am so annoying, then why do I have about 20 x more friends then you do. How come everyday, I got home, do homework and hang out with friends while you rot away in your room playing Call of Duty, Counterstrike and World of Warcraft. Your mom sent you to a therapist for a reason. Not because your parents were getting a divorce, not because your brother is addicted to alcohol, and not because your sister is a slut.. They sent you because they were worried about you. You broke a mirror with your fist, you smoked weed almost every single day. Everytime anyone saw you, you were high off your ass. And I had to be your fucking babysitter.
On our last trip of the year. You called me a cunt, because I carved your name into my leg. You told half of our school that you wouldn't stop harrassing me until I killed myself. We had to leave our trip early due to my safety. No one trusted you around me. You are the biggest douchebag i have every met.
I cried over and over again for you.
I cut myself over you.
I bled because of you.
I was your girlfriend.
I was the first person you loved.
I was your first. I taught you how to kiss, make out, finger a girl, fuck a girl, eat a girl out, and plenty of other things.

Did any of that mean something to you. or was i your fucking little play toy?

You had an infectiion in your throat, and no one was there to pity you because you need to reember your friends are my friends too.
You might not stop harrassing me until I die. But I will never stop pretending that you still mean anything to me.


Love and Kisses.
Christiana!

Oh. ANnd P.S Have fun in anger management..